When you feel like Brian Molko

There's this vivid dream of pressing herself close to a person who provides her emotional support and comfort.

But it is also at these times that she feels the need to detach herself from the society and everyone around her, including her duet. She has in mind of going astray, walking aimlessly into the shadow of doubts. Deep in the forest, lies nothing but perplexities and only an answer. However, if she proceeds, she would only prove him right as he once said: "You'll go astray on me, one day I'm sure. And I'll be sad."

Not that she hasn't done that before.

She finds herself being in the middle of the road - a road that has two paths. She could either choose to stay and share or choose to vanish. At present, there's nothing that she wants more than feeling secure again. Her hands are well-kept at each side of her body but her desire is to hold on to something. Aside of the keyboard.

But anyway, I truly hope that today will be a great day to perform. InsyaAllah. :). This is the list of things that I hope to do and accomplish:

1. Donate blood.
2. Enroll myself in a yoga or dance class.
3. More manicure and pedicure with Masami.
4. Getting pampered at spas or just at massage parlors (with Syaz or Masami.)
5. Further my studies.
6. Shed a few pounds (like that's going to happen. Hah!).
7. Be a better person and learn from the mistakes I've made.
8. Be a stronger person.
9. To feel that it's all right to feel what I feel and show it.
10. Run freely.
11. Work as a social worker by feeding the need or just helping out those in need.
12. Make my parents happy and proud.
13. To be able to let my guard down.
14. Improve my work ethics and perform consistently.
15. Let loose.
16. Be happy.
17. Stop going astray.
18. To be loved by God.

INSYAALLAH!


Regards,
Nadirah H. Rodzi